Living Out Loud: January 15th Edition

• It's almost midnight, and I am drinking vodka.

• I am seriously contemplating divorce.

• I'm not sure those two aren't related.

• But then, I'm not sure that they are, either.

• I don't feel as bad or ashamed about any of this as I should.

• What I DO feel ashamed about: I've got a lot of reactionary instincts about all the terrorist things that have happened over the last two weeks. I know that outlawing Islam or bombing a region ISN'T the answer, but since I don't know what IS the answer, I don't speak up.

• So far, my main goal this month has been "don't have a nervous breakdown." So far, so good, especially considering the divorce thing, and the Really Big Event at the Library this month.

• At work this week, someone told me my desk looked like an episode of "Hoarders." I've never watched that show, but I'm pretty sure that's not a good thing.

• Deeply discounted Yankee candles and Hello Kitty aviator hats are the bomb-diggety.